2) Try setting aside your presumptions.
An ex is like the fat kid from high school.
“Because the Church tells me to” is a pretty unsatisfactory answer…
I think the pressure of the secrecy surrounding my sexuality was a significant part of what pushed me to pornography.
My innocence was killing me.
Another form of objectification turns someone into an object of sexual fear.
Regardless of whether Catholics see a place for me in the Church, I’m not leaving.
The Our Father makes me uncomfortable. Praying shouldn’t be easy.
God doesn’t want to be our puppeteer or the master computer from which we derive all our programming.
This was during the angry hedonistic phase of my life, when I had given up on God’s plan for me but not yet on His existence.